i cant slp until nw,
everyone is slping nw why isnt mi?
no matter hw much i drank juz cant close my eyes down,
i'm too foolish on everything nw
i'm in de circle always no whr i can get out of it
i cant jump out of it
i'm tired nw

alot of thing to say, no words came out,
granted is too heavy for mi nw,
i cant take this words easily in life,
i feel tat eveyone like to take it for granted,
i hav changed isnt wad i wan,
my mind cant even to hav a min of break,
thing keep came in my mind
thinking and thinking,
isnt well this few dayz
no matter hw i relax, listen to music
i cant stop de thinking neither den tokin to ppl
u guyz say i'm crazy, i really hope i can 1 dayz,
cuz aleast i living in my own world,
no one can understand hw i feel,
i gt lot of thing to say, but everytime isnt de rite time!!
I HAV IT ENOUGH OF THIS!
I GOIN TO GET CRAZY NO ONE CAN STOP THIS!!!

thing is kind of settle down in reality
in de back's no one noe, but i can see mask is wearing
mi too isnt it
hope tat thing will be fine soon!
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him is back,
i'm confused nw
i really dunnoe wad shld i do
am i stupid for this
hais

meet up darlinz early in de morning
to simei to hav breakfast wif darling's
walking around dere den head town shopping
dinner over at town,
back jp darling brought her new laptop
cost$999, she love it alot i think! great darling
head home in nite!
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i need time for everything nw,
even i dun understand wad happen,
dun understand why,
thing hav already happen wif no turning back
sick and tired of it can?
time for mi to let go feel better?

time will let thing down,
no matter hw long pain will gone wif times,
do take care inside, i will do wadever i can for this family
hope everyone is well, wif no worry's
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i need time to let go,
hw long?

life is full of fool in it,
tot family dun care u de most,
when thing really happen they will gif u de helping hand always,
this few day isnt smiling,
full of tear's
full of stress
full of emo-ing
today went to see him wif dad and mum!
was de first time after i born i saw daddy cried really hard when he tokin to bro!
even tat daddy always say dun care for him let bro go ahead go die, dun care!
but really can see tat daddy really very worry and care for bro!
every parent care for their child even they dun say,
daddy health look nt well nw a day, he nv went for doctor
he rather save de money for us to spend,
this few year cuz of working he isnt at home
look no care in de family,
no love in it, only earning money
when thing happen he de first wan to think of a way,
hw to help to fix de problem!
but nw is juz only blaming who fault is it in de family to let de thing happen
is already no use for tat isnt,
no one wan tat oso!!
mummy look nth happen! but can see her keep wake up in de nite,
keep drinking and smoking heavy nw,
their health isnt gd like last time anymore!
but i cant even help anything in it, i look unless for tat
keep gving problem for them
hw i wish thing nv happen before,
my life is like a game,
he came out bro go in!
wad shld i do?
missing something in my life
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great tat u came out,
but thing is nt wad i wan anymore
i juz like a fool

emo suddenly,
tot of crying hard out,
but no tear for mi,
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darling
muz be strong hao ma?
even hw sad and tired u are
i will be dere for u de
i am always standing at here
anything for u k,
dun worry for anything,
dun cry for everything
dun hate anyone
dun emo cuz of this
even tat u do all this thing come to mi
tell mi all de thing u wish to say out
i will listen to you nw when u need mi
I will be dere for u!! u are nt alone!!

darling,
when time reach de pain will be gone!
不要在哭了！
不要在 痛苦了。
i will be dere!
rmr ur promise this time =)

everything seen to happen!
my feeling hao fan and hao luan!
i dunnoe wad shld i do,
as darlinz say forward wad ur heart say!
even tat i noe wad to do!
i cant clime over it nw!
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darling,
dun cry anymore cuz of this can?
我的心好痛好痛!不要在看你哭
even tat u gt hurts, turn ur back's
look at mi, i will be dere for u de!
my shlder is here can lent to u to lie on
my ears is here for u to say everything tat u wan
willing to meet up anytime
willing to listen of everything,
willing to cry wif u,
不要难过还有我在!

i hav no mood for everything nw!
i nt smiling seen thing has happen,
cry, emo and smoke is wad i do nw
for this few day!
i cant feel anything wif anyone!
i juz alone always
this my fate wont change for being alone!
i noe i was changing nw! getting worst!
think this de road i shld walk,
this de road i shld walk on!
no one is dere,
no one will be dere!
juz alone!